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Monday, 28 November 2011

The End; Thought

Have I reached the end of the road I thought to myself... well leave those thoughts to another time, but No. Situations and events had given room to all these. A shell people had thought was so hard did not crack but the tortoise crawled out and then someone what’s the tortoise to stay out? But No the trend of the shocks were too immense to ever think it safe to stay out!

What next, what is the way forward and where do we turn to! All this should be a less attractive idea which should be brushed aside but this does not seem to be happening any time soon. And finally I began to reason did life permit all this? If yes then I guess some people were made to swiftly adjust to such or maybe not.

I just keep thinking is this the end of the road, Oh sorry is it a crescent? As usual, it will be safe to play cool and watch the tide make its push before you stair the boat.

Saturday, 04 December 2010

Where I'm I Heading!

Hello,

How are you and how’s your day? I just felt it relevant to write to you after we spoke last noon. I got shocked when you asked me how work was. Yap I’m working with the Jubilee Systems on a contract of peanut! It can only cover transport, browsing and downloads of concepts less than my up keep. Well i aint complaining because I was waiting for a letter like I mentioned to you some time back.

I’d earlier mentioned to you that I went for an interview. Well I was told to check back by 17^th December. That’s the Job I dream off not this contract job of peanut. Well I felt its good I informed you because I’ve learnt you were told I was working or something and that sounds odd when I keep saying there isn’t anything tangible.

Sometimes I text you no reply I feel like I’m pushing myself at you well I really don’t know. I may be way too vocal and that’s my nature. Just be plain and simple serve me the curtsey of telling me what’s up!

Saturday, 28 August 2010

THE LOVE FRIENZY

People who know me will simply describe me as to the circumstance they meet me and how well they know me. But funny is the way my life just turned into a love cabal. Strangely I just always seem to be asking the same old question how and why do people seem to be my friend?

Recently I’ve come in contact with diverse people but 2010 just seemed to make more scores on my score card. Who’s single now? Well the whole flare of emotions and the idea of love just seem to be popping all over and I’m left stranded in the corridors of my environment.

Its part of life I’ll usually say but in the space of a month I’m now seeing things all differently. Why? And what went right or wrong? Well these are questions I may definitely not have an answer. My life just seems to rise from one stage to the other but it’s made a lot more much shaping from friends and environments.

I’m scared out of my shell cause I want to observed where this whole line of love ends up or does it just continues all through life. Comments and side talks when I’m around the ladies just seem to make me wonder what they are talking about. In less than two weeks i was on a warn sit like I was been investigated all by the ladies and women I found around me.

Where and in what direction am I going! I’m I ready for the dual lane of LOVE?

Thursday, 12 August 2010

HEARD LEARN’T LESSION: I’m Not Afraid

I’m trying to figure this crap put, I though I had it mapped out! I learnt lots and lots of lesions and I know I’m still yet to learn some more. But this one hit me heard. I’ll rather give everyone a one off chance and when they blow it I will rather give them a half chance if at all I was to consider them.

I have been betrayed backstabbed and being insulted. There are animals ‘built for the kill’ but i guess I am a human ‘built for work’ that simply just makes the thought of idealness make me fall sick. I’m not afraid to take a step because I’d rather make a mistake than do nothing.

I’ve watched crime investigation programs and wondered on many occasions what the assailant thought of before getting involved in such level of crime. Thought some appear small others appear well executed.

I’ve finally mastered the act of HATE! Lots of people will definitely not understand me but in my utmost confusion I write as a human. When i say I’ll do something I will do it because I just don’t give a damn what you think. And all those who looked down on me just know that in this small village we call world that what goes around comes around.

Whichever comes first is acceptable by me because I’m married to the game. The deception, lies, deceit, pain, gain and well the rosy side of life I’ll work this life through the storm whatever the weather cold or warm. Come hold my hands, it does feel like we travelling through the same love street.

I just want keep living of thinking this way so starting from today I’ll be a better listener because Silence must be heard. I’m so feed up, I’ve heard enough and I must put my life back together right now!
NEVER FOR YOU!

I’ve really taken time to think through a lot of issues affecting my life and my being. I’ve made mistakes and no regrets about them. But just of recent i just got more confused than i have ever being.

I looked back at my child hood and all i could remember best is the fact that i was brought up like I was in some military base! This gave me a much wired perception of life. It may sound strange but I grew up with a high affection for inanimate objects as compared to humans. Just a few weeks ago i had a chart with a revered friend and i recalled my childhood stories.

I was born in intense quietness. People barely knew that there was a child at home until they worked in and saw a baby called Jon. It usually shocked a lot of people. I’ve grown up and just observed I’ve been really vocal of late and sure I in many instances have been misquoted and misrepresented by lots of people. I’m resolved to be silent. I meet someone who has really stirred my life for good.

I’m and could reason strangely that i surely know. I’ve got temper issues and therefore choose to smile it all off but it just does not seem to go down well with some people. And now the monster in me just grew up. I can say for a fact that there are people I see and smile but the slightest loop I get to hurt them i will damage them without a second thought.

I’ve got to a point of no apologies I want to HATE! Because I’m tired of all these parents who just expect you to leave the extra halves of their lives. I believe every person should be guided at some point but when you grow up to observe that adjustments ore being made to what you learnt in your younger days it just doesn’t make any sense. ‘Don’t trust anyone’ was resounded to me as I grew up this made me question things. Then I heard don’t trust anyone except your family! And this sounded funny to me because I just knew that people most definitely don’t know me. I’ll rather love my sculptures, paintings, and laptop than waste my time thinking about my childhood.